Wednesday, December 30, 2009

31th

5:33 PM

Haiz... The day has come, tomorrow have to go to school already. Why tomorrow? Why the last day of 2009?

Argh, going back to school, that means, all the things that break the school rules have to be removed. Why so troublesome? Can I break the school rules? No way, rules is rules, as a student, I have to obey, I have to.

Still wasting my time now, Physics revision book is just in front of me, openned, but I don't have the mood to study it. Useless... Failure...

Last day of the school holiday, should I do the things that I wanna do? ( You're doing your things all the time =.= )

Sc3, can't imagine what will happen when I'm studying in that class. Will I get fed up and go crazy when I can't stand the noise the others made? OMG~~ What a disaster...

Should I close my book? Close, study, close, study.... Argh...!!!!!!! Go To Hell!!!!!

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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

The Pearl

6:00 PM

Finally I finished my The Pearl.

A 87 pages novel, I used 2 days to finish it, what a failure, right? I'm not pro in reading, I can't really finish a book in a short time like others do.

I didn't expect the conclusion of this novel will be like this. I thought Kino will sell his pearl but he didn't, he threw it back to the sea. What a waste.

Okay, done my job...

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Monday, December 28, 2009

Hunger?

11:30 PM

School is reopenning, I don't want to study in Sc3! There are alot of monsters in Sc3. I'll surely go crazy. Disaster!!!!!!!

I skipped my dinner today cause I had my lunch pretty late. Normally, I don't eat anything after 10 o'clock although I feel hungry. The only thing I'll do is, straight away run to my bed and sleep! This will prevent me from starving and growing fat. I can kill two birds with one stone, Haha... so good.

I started to read The Pearl today. I finished half of it, I planned to read the whole book and return the book to Woei by tomorrow. The Pearl, is really a boring story. Boring, so what? I still have to read it, it is Form 5's syllabus. Haiz, boring....

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Sunday, December 27, 2009

Merry Chrismas

12:21 AM

Chrismas of 2009 is finally over, but the desaster of mine is still here. There is five more days before 2010 reach.

This is the first Chrismas I been through with all kinds of sickness. Last night, I went to the restaurant with my big family to take our dinner. I went in that restaurant with my nose blocked, ear blocked, headache, and sore throat.

Those sickness really kill me. But now, the headache had stopped, my ear is still slightly blocked, suffering from running nose and sore throat. One more thing, I can't leave my water bottle, if I do, I'll suffer from dry throat. OMG~~

Okay then, I think I'll gonna go to school with this 'special' condition, no other choices for me...

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Thursday, December 24, 2009

Smile?

11:17 PM

How long didn't I smile during this holiday? Few days continueously, I think...

Finally, there is a thing that made me smile today. Really thanks to Yin and Tracey. ^^ Long time didn't have such happy day...

Monkey, that monkey, take good care of that monkey okay? >.< I really didn't think before that I'll get a monkey from a toy machine. Is this consider lucky?

Sis is in Taiping Sentral now, counting down for the Chrismas. That means, I'm the only one to do tangyuan for my brother. OMG!

Okay, I have to sleep early. If not, I can't finish my job, again...

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Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Failure

11:47 PM

Wondering since long long time ago, has the God did a big mistake 16 years ago? The presence of mine is not really a good thing.

I'm not a good girl, I'm a failure. I always make my parents angry, didn't do what my parents want me to, can't really complete a simple job successfully...

If my mum didn't delivery me 16 years ago, I think this world will be even perfect. Since my parents didn't plan to have me too. Will the presence of mine making everyone suffer?

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Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Give up?

4:29 PM

Is it better to give up on the thing that will make ourself suffer? Putting too much attention on it and can't get the thing I want for return. Pupil should not ask for return after doing something, I know this concept well, but I'm not that type.

Should I just give up before I can't manage to let go anything and make myself even suffer? Let everything just back to normal, just so easy. But this matter, is not as easy as I think, I knew that very well.

My brain love to exercise so much, I'm always thinking nonsence all the time. But I tried to think before, if everything is not as bad as I think? If everything is just up-side-down with what's in my mind?

Haiz, still a lot of question marks wondering in my mind...

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Monday, December 21, 2009

Success?

4:32 PM

After busying for so many days, finally I have some time for myself.

Time for myself? Ya, is time to continue my studies. I stopped touching my book since the day I went to KL. Is time to let everything back to normal, continue revision my form 4 syllabus.

Just 14 days left to go before school reopen. Everything will become tougher to handle compare to this year. Form 5 syllabus, SPM, tough job. Can I manage to handle everything successfully?

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Saturday, December 19, 2009

Let it be

11:39 PM

Can you just forget about this matter? I choose not to tell everything is because I don't want anybody to worry about me. It is fine for me to assume everything, I don't want to ruin everything. Just let it be okay?

If my feelings have reach the limit, I may do anything to stop this case. Like, lock this blog up. I have to release my feelings some where, but without the knowing of others. If not, I'll really go crazy. Or another way, lock myself up. Which one will be better?

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Emotions

10:01 PM

Today, plenty of emotions I have.

I,
Felt sorry for didn't touch any books.
Felt sorry to my friends for not going to Bukit Larut.
Felt disappointed because my father don't allow me to go Bukit Larut.
Felt guilty for charging my sister's ipod without her permission.
Felt worry after my mum said that sentences.
Felt fed up when listening mum mumbling again and again.

Negative, negative, negative, all negative. Well, this is all in my mind. I should let myself relax now, since I'm going to suffer next year...

Not telling anything is totally a right decision. Today, I tried to tell my mum the reason why I'm not willing to tell everything but at last, I got the same result, get scolded.

My mum got another spy now. This people, knows well about a friend of my. This is what I'm worrying about...

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Friday, December 18, 2009

Bla

5:06 PM

Oh my god! I didn't touch my books for few days already. Or I should just let myself relax for the next 16 days?

Whatever, now going to Ipoh. Bye...

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Thursday, December 17, 2009

Sleepless

2:10 AM

Long time didn't still awake at this time, 2.10 in the morning.

My family and I just came back from my grandmother's house. My elder cousin are getting marry tomorrow. Everyone is happy about it, me either.

Better get to bed now, tomorrow still have a long journey to go...

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Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Destiny

10:24 PM

Sc3, next year will study at Sc3. Others opinion, they will feel that this is a good sign. But for me, it will never be.

Today is really a bad day. Firstly, Yin told me about the bad news and now I found out that my earpiece were missing. My auntie just bought that earpiece for me last Saturday.

Well well well, this is my life, my destiny. I just have the right to accept it, not to change it.

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Saturday, December 12, 2009

KL

10:15 PM

Around 11 in the morning, we reached my auntie's house. So tired...

3 hours later, we went to Mid Valley to take our lunch and dinner. My auntie bought an earphone for me, thanks.

We spent about 5 hours in Mid Valley. Now, tired. I think I gonna sleep early today.

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Friday, December 11, 2009

Sc4 not Sc3

11:29 PM

Please... Let me remain in Sc4 okay? I really don't want to leave Sc4.

If I really study in Sc3 next year, there will be alot of problems coming. All the teachers will change, I don't want. Just now Woei said that Pn. Siek will be Sc3's BM teacher. OMG~~

Please... I want Sc 4, not Sc3...

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Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Autism

10:37 AM

This proved that, it doesn't mean that if I shut my mouth, I wouldn't get scolded. Because, my mum will know everything from her friend.

I know I can't blame her for telling everything to her mum, because this is one of her habit. I won't tell everything to my mum because I'll get scolded, no matter it is right or wrong.

When she tell everything to her mum, her mum will tell everything to my mum. After telling everything to my mum, she'll say another sentences. "Don't tell your daughter I told you this, because she will scold my daughter..."

What do this mean? Tell also get scolded, don't tell also get scolded. Is not my fault okay...

Well, I'm not scolding her, I'm just trying to release what is in my mind that can't tell to my mum. Okay, I'll do as you want, from the beginning of today, I won't tell her or the others anything. I'll hide everything for myself until the day I can't stand anymore and go crazy...


PS: Ming, if you see this, please don't tell your mum about this post. But if you want, I won't blame you, just go ahead...

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Tuesday, December 8, 2009

New for me

10:11 PM

Yin and Zaku had posted yesterday's pictures in facebook. But I don't know what is the problem, I can't upload mine.
Still wondering why I got tagged in so many pictures.... especially in Yin's album. Haiz, I think I gonna dig a hole and immediately hide my head in that hole. T.T

Today, I did something new. It occured better than I thought.

Just 23 more days to go before the end of 2009. I think I better enjoy my life before 2010 comes. I can't imagine what will happen in 2010...

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Monday, December 7, 2009

Fun time

4:22 PM

Today, Yin, Zaku, Ming and I went to Taman Tasik together to do our Moral project. But I think, doing Moral project is not the main objective, playing is the main objective.

Firstly, we went to "da shu xia" to take our breakfast. Since I'm not really hungry, I just look at 3 of my friends to eat their delicious breakfast.

So happy today! At first, I'm thinking of telling something, but I didn't say it out. The atmosphere today is so nice, I don't want to ruin everything.

Didn't feel like writing much today. So.... Show time!

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Friday, December 4, 2009

'morning exercise'

10:19 AM

Every morning, in the same spot, also same time, I'll inhale few seconds of carbon monoxide. Of course, not in purpose.

Just few seconds, not very long, so its okay. But few seconds per day, what will happen in the future?

No big deal. If it is serious, I'll just get lung cancer or brain damage?

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Thursday, December 3, 2009

Gloomy in a sudden

9:41 PM

Just back from cousin's house. Everything is going well before that, but my mood fell deeply in just a sudden.

I don't know what had happen, everything goes wrong after I turn on the computer. Maybe I'm too tired?

Whatever, since that everything is not in my hand, I'll just force myself to accpet it...

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Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Popcorn

1:30 PM

Parents going out now, means that I'm home alone. Hurray!

The first thing I want to do is, skip meal. Haha,I planned not to eat my lunch. I'm still quite full now and I can have the chance to keep fit too.

After parents go out, I want to eat my popcorn I bought in Gaint just now. Hehe...

I miss the popcorn in Genting. The smells good and cheap. A big packet is just sell for RM5. Miss that popcorn.

Show time....

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Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Scold?

11:30 PM

Before I went out, Ming asked me that am I getting scold again. I replied her, no.

But just a moment later, I get scolded. Reason, passing phone to my dad. Is it wrong when I pass the phone to my dad? No, it isn't, but it is when I pass it in a wrong time.

I passed the phone to my dad when there was a war between my parents and their 'friend'. I thought the person in the phone is a very important person to my dad, so I passed the phone to him. I swear, I don't even want to step in that house if the phone didn't ring!

When my parents and I went in the car, my mother scolded me for passing the phone to my dad in the wrong time. In addition a word, you are stupid! Ya, I agree, I'm stupid, I'm idiot, I'm useless...

Actually, I think I'm the wrong one. I'm lucky for just getting scold but not receiving punishment. I'm 16 years old now, but still having 6 years old mindset. I'm the wrong one...

Getting scold? I'm used to it, although I'm the wrong one...

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Monday, November 30, 2009

Had the holiday begins?

12:15 PM

Holiday? Have the holiday starts? Why I don't feel the joy that should be enjoying during holiday?

Every morning I still have to go out with my parents. I know is is all for my own good, my parents are afraid that I'll be harmed if I stay in home alone.

But, just folllowing them out like that is really boring, so I'll sleep in the car almost in the whole journey. Now, my mother will start to scold, blaming me that always sleep in the car, said that I'm just like a person that lag of sleep.

Okay, I don't sleep, I'll listen to music. When I listen to music, she'll scold again. She said that I won't know what's happenning around me when I'm listenning to mucis. Even that somemore is going to attack me, I'll won't know the person is coming too.

So, what you want me to know? You don't allow me to sleep, don't allow me to listen to music and don't even allow me to stay in my house. What should I do? What you want me to do?

Can you just allow me to enjoy my holiday happily? Or everything it will occur is fate? The god don't allow me to enjoy my holiday, he wants me to suffer.

Since everything is fate, I'll just follow what they want me to do. I'll do what as they say. No choices for me. So, don't ask me what is my opinion about the out door activity, just do what you guys like...

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Friday, November 27, 2009

Sick?

7:57 PM

I think I'm going to sick already.

Maybe I'm having sore throat now, feel like something is in my throat.

Feeling like going fever too,some of the symptoms of fever are found in my body now...

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Thursday, November 26, 2009

I'm back

12:40 AM

Just now about 11.30p.m., we reached our school. How fast the time travel during these 4 days.

5 group of us took part in the international competition and 4 of the group got gold and 1 of it got silver. When I heard my group got gold for the competition, unfortunately I didn't feel any happy because I know that I didn't play the song very well in the competition.

Everyone was cheering and shouting in the bus but not my group. Is it because we know that is surpose not to be happen or because of we didn't get a gold of the main group?

This Sunday we still have to go to school, I'm not very sure what is the purpose.

I'll surely miss this 4 days trip and the Genting Highlands.

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Sunday, November 22, 2009

Bye

5:19 AM

I'm going to School now.

Hope everyone has a nice day. Bye!

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Saturday, November 21, 2009

Genting

5:15 PM

Going to Genting tomorrow, but I still haven pack finish my bag pack.

My brother came back this morning, he brought his Lumix back for me, hurray!! ^^ He's going back tomorrow night by bus. Still wondering, what is his motif for coming back today...

Tomorrow morning 5.30 a.m., I have to reach school. I'll be back on 25th November. Hope that the weather in Genting will not too bad. And one more thing, hope that I won't have stomachache, gastric during this 'trip'.

If there is enough time, I'll buy some souvenir back from Genting.. ^^

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Cold

12:31 AM

Argh....two more days to go before the competition arrive. Honestly, I didn't 100% complete my practice yet >.< I'm a lazy girl right? I'm not a good girl...

Today is the last day of being a 4Sc4 student. Normally, I'll feel happy during the last day of the schooling but not this year. A competition is waiting for me, how do I feel happy?

So cold now, am I getting sick? I hope not, is just two more days left before aheading to Genting Highlands, I can't sick now. Maybe after the competition?

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Thursday, November 19, 2009

Busy day

11:37 PM

Having a performance in Hua Lian Hign School just now. All the teachers attend this dinner. OMG!!! My chinese language teacher saw me on the stage and waved her hand to me too =.=

Just now's performance, felt that it is not really good. Feel kinda dissapointed. I asked some of my friends to give their opinion, they said that it is not bad, just it is too soft ( electronic problem) .

Is it true? Feel like it is not the truth. Thinking of asking Pam's opinion tomorrow. ( are you crazy?)

Today's mood, same as yesterday, not really good. Tomorrow is the last day of 4Sc4 in 2009, why the time travels so fast, I'll surely miss everything in form 4 life.

Although the exam had over, but seems that everyone is still busy with their own matter. I'm still waiting for the arrival of 2012. When the time comes, is the time for me to die.....

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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Poor english

10:44 PM

Today's feeling, too complicated, can't manage to write it with my poor english, so I wrote it at the other blog. Hope my sis didn't see it.

Everything I wanna write is all at the other blog. I think I better go to bed now, otherwise I don't have enough energy for tomorrow's activity.

Just saw Sean Chin's blog. To Sean Chin: If you really not willing to borrow me your hat, you can reject my request. Do you know? After seeing your blog, you made me even suffer, even stress. Since the hat is so important to you, why you wanna borrow it to me?

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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

When a Child is Born

7:17 PM

A ray of hope flickers in the sky
A tiny star lights up way up high
All across the land dawns a brand new morn
This comes to pass when a child is born.

A silent wish sails the seven seas
The winds of change whisper in the trees
And the walls of doubt crumble, tossed and torn
This comes to pass, when a child is born.

A rosy hue settles all around
You got the feel, you're on solid ground
For a spell or two no one seems forlorn
This comes to pass, when a child is born.

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The Road not Taken

5:50 PM

Oh gosh~~

Thursday night, there are two activities in the same time. Firstly, chemistry tuition and the second one is orkestra performance.

I don't want to miss my Chemistry tuition. If I miss that class, I'm afriad that I can't follow the others' step.

If I attend the orkestra performance, I can gain more experience so that I won't be too afraid during the orkestra competition.

Which road I should choose? Chemistry tuition or orkestra performance?

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Monday, November 16, 2009

Exhausted

8:04 PM

Just now in school, I had a small chat with my X-teacher.

He said that I had grown up. Huh? Are you sure? But honestly, I prefer not to grow up fast. After growing up, I have to handle more difficult challenges, have to suffer from all kinds of problems.

These few days damn tired, having damn bad mood. Still hoping that this Friday will not arrive forever, although it is impossible.

From Tuesday till Friday, I have to stay in school for practicing. I think, my back is hurted now. Will the structure of my backbone change after this?

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Sunday, November 15, 2009

Wrong idea?

10:28 PM

Staying in school for practicing more than 12 hours. My hand had swollened and I'm so tired now.

We did a small 'concert' in the orkestra room. 5 groups of us took part in this activity. 3 groups did their excellent job but not the group that I parcitipate.

Two teachers commented on our performance. The 3 group received quite good comments but not the two group I parcitipate. Everyone did very well but not the members that in a same group with me.

Wondering, am I the one who ruin or influence everything? Everything that I participate in will surely can't work well. This kind of incident occur since long long time ago.

Another incident, I asked a friend about another incident but she told me not to think too much, its not my problem.

I'll surely get involve if anything had occur. Is this really not my problem? Or I'm the one who worry too much?

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Saturday, November 14, 2009

2012

11:44 PM

Haha, I watched 2012 with my friends today. 2012 is really a nice movie, really touching (the effect of the movie is touching, not the content of the movie ^^).

Me and a gang of friends went to Sushi King twice today. Wah!! We broke our record, we went to Sushi King twice in a day. Hyin said that the manager will sure be very happy seeing us coming in and out.

In Sushi King, I met the orkestra teacher. Teacher!! This time I saw you in Sushi King, so can you stop shooting me when you see me? He knocked my head when I'm talking to Hyin. But luckily, is not really painful. ^^

After everyone went back and the end just left me and Hyin. I asked her alot of silly questions today. Yin, thanks for replying my question. ^^ Both of us talk about alot of topics that we didn't touch before, lol.

In the same time, my parents Butterworth came to Taiping Central too. As usual, they chat, chat and chat non stop. At the end at 11.10p.m., my parents and I only manage to get into our vehicle and return to our home.

Tomorrow still have to go school. I don't want, can I ponteng? If I do that, Kar Ling will sure kill me. Argh, so tired.....

I'll surely miss today. I really hope that my time will stop at 14/11/2009. So that I don't need to study, don't need to attend orkestra cina practice.

Back to the topic, what is my dream? Still wondering....

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Friday, November 13, 2009

Not willing to

7:53 PM

Ms. Choy said in class today,

"Who ever want to watch My Fair Lady please come on Monday."

"Who ever want to take their results slip please come on Wednesday."

"Who ever want to know which class they will be going next year please come on Friday."

For sure, I will be present in these three days. 2009 is ending, why don't we just go to school and enjoy the rest of three days time?

Friday, is there any way to stop Friday from coming? I don't want to be seperated with my friends, especially Hyin. Is hard to seperatre for me.

There are Physics extra class tomorrow, I think this is the last extra class for year 2009.

I don't want to be seperated, I don't want.....

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Thursday, November 12, 2009

Hair Cut

3:13 PM

I cut my hair just now. Not much different, looks not bad I think.

Today's atmosphere in school is really bad, a number of friends' mood is not really good. Someone cried too. But it's over.

Today's teacher is really hardworking, almost all the teacher are teaching today. So boring, can't rest also.

Hmm, nothing to write already, bye...

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Wednesday, November 11, 2009

When A Child Is Born

9:41 PM

Today in school, I heard Woei said that I may be going up to 5Sc3 next year.

Har? Can I reject? I don't really feel wanna leave Sc4 and my friends. I'm use to it in a girls class.

Listenning to a song now, 'When A Child Is Born'. A very touching song. I asked it from Ms.Choy just now.

Ms. Choy, she replied me in just few seconds time. She said she is not good in computers. Is she bluffing us?

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Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Crazy Day

9:24 PM

Wah... Today whole day wondering outside. So tired...

Just because of the stupid orkestra cina, I have to stay in school until 5 o'clock in school for praticing. Actually, I planned to leave the school at 5.15 p.m., but the teacher didn't stop, so I finally manage to leave the school at around 5.45 p.m.

The last Physics tuition class start at 6 o'clock. I manage to rush there in time, luckily... But unfortunately, I'm suffering there. I'm suffer from itchyness. T.T

Not only that, I suffer from gastric too. But quite funny, I'll still suffer from gastric although I ate some food before the lesson start.

To tired now... Should I climb on my bed now? But now is only 9.30 p.m.....

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Monday, November 9, 2009

Boring~~

3:15 PM

Haiz... Today is a boring day again.

Some of the subjects had return. The results....haiz. Don't mention it again.

During Chinese period, I sneak out from the class and when to orkestra room. Yin came to the orkestra room and ask Ming and I to return to the class.

Although is quite impossible, can the teachers allow the member of 4Sc4 to remain in the same class again? I'll surely miss all my friends...

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Saturday, November 7, 2009

Bad girl

11:03 PM

After coming back from school practice, my parents told me that we will be going to Butterworth. As usual, I'll reject. As a result, I get scolded.

The last term exam is just over, so I started to watch my favourite movie. But my mother said that I always watch movie, didn't do anything else.

Why can't you guys just let me do what I want to do first? I'll do some revision, but not now, later.

Can I be a naughty girl? Since I'm not a good girl at all....

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Friday, November 6, 2009

Hyin, Woei and I

9:32 PM

Just back from Taiping Central with Hyin and Woei.

Long time didn't go to Taiping Central with my friends already. Really enjoy myself today. I do really hope that the time will stop in between 9 o'clock in the morning and 8.30 p.m.

Today, I spent alot >.<>.< So, please don't misunderstand.

After that, we went to KFC to take our lunch. We felt that our stomach is bursting because we ate alot. Since there is plenty of time left, we sit at the food court in Taiping Central. Woei and I did some crazy things there. ^^

After watching our movie, we went to Sushi King to take our dinner. Yin, your dream has come true. ^^ Sushi King is the last destination of the day.

06/11/2009, I'll miss today. Hope that we have the chance to gather around like that again...

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Thursday, November 5, 2009

Precious

11:11 PM

Just two more week to go, the year 2009 is ending, Form 4 syllabus is completing too.

The me in 2008 and 2009 is totally different. Who changed me? Anyone who close to me knows.
Do I need to blame her from changing me or thank her from changing me? Honestly, I'm still thinking this question.

Recalling back to year 2008....

In year 2008, I'm just a simple, invisible girl in school. There is only two purposes for going to school. First study, second complete all the assignments. Other from that, I don't really care what is happening in the school.

But anyway, I'll miss the three meaningless year. The life in those three years is just like a straight line. Didn't have any best friend, being hatred by the people who I don't know and so on.
Farewell year 2008.

Now, year 2009....

Beginning of year 2009, everything is rushing. I worked really hard to be used to the form 4 syllabus. Is really hard but everything move smoother now. Besides that, I discovered a mysterious place too.

I'll sure miss my form 4 life. A precious moment in my life...


*My answer, thanks for changing me.....^^

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Nonsence

3:02 PM

Forgotten to bring my Additional Mathematics home, haiz...

Since the exam is over, this is the time for me to relax.

Hurray!! Tomorrow I'm going to Taiping Central with my friends again. I long time didn't relax myself already.

Actually, I don't really know what to write for today's blog =.=

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Sunday, November 1, 2009

Denatured

6:28 PM

Just finish my Sejarah chapter nine.

Wah~~ Read until want to die already ah. I have to stop studying for awhile, if not I'll go crazy. Now anything also can't get in my mind already...

At night only continue my Sejarah revision~~

Now, time to relax!! Continue my show, Black and White. Just one episode~~~

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Saturday, October 31, 2009

The cause

10:02 AM

Long time didn't swim, still can move, just can't swim long distance. Haha~~

After swimming, I realized something. I think, my shoulder is hurted. I can't really swim freestyle freely. Once I swim freestyle, both of my shoulder will feel pain.

What cause this pain to occur? Over tired? Over using strength?

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Friday, October 30, 2009

Numa Numa

4:42 PM

In CRC now~~

Wow, the internet in CRC is pretty fast today, I downloaded quite a number of songs here, included Numa Numa...

I'm here with Jia Yi for swimming. Long time didn't swmin already. Will I drown later?

Haha~~ I won't get drown so easily one la. But this kind of thing very hard to say, like my essay, if I'm be destinated to be died, I'll die where ever I hide.

Anyone have six scence here? Can you tell me when will I die?

Haha, just kidding~~

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Thursday, October 29, 2009

Seok sendiri

8:59 PM

Today I took the exam for Additional Mathematics and Biology.

Am I dying? I left a few questions behind for Additional Mathematics. I threw away about 20 plus marks. Dying soon right?

After that is Biology paper. One of the section C, 10 marks question, I spot it wrongly. Will I get an egg for that part? Who can you blame? You can only blame at yourself because you didn't study enough for Biology.

During Biology paper, my eyes began to feel itchy. I scratch and rub my eyes until it became became warm and slightly swollen.

Pam pass by my sit just now. She asked me, 'what happen to you? Feel uncomfortable?'

I replied her, ' nothing actually, just my eye is really itchy now.'

She replied me, ' Oh? Wanna receive a punch from me?'

What do you mean actually? Can you explain to me again?

When I went up my vehicle without my spectacles, my mom show me her strange expression and asked me where is my spectacles.

Don't worry,I'm just expressing my crazy feeling, didn't really blame on Pam or anyone. Or actually no one is worrying, I'm just seok sendiri-ING?

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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Feeling of lonely

9:05 PM

Alone, the word alone. I hate it? I'm fear of it? Yeah, but it's my past.

After somebody enlightened me, I started to learn to change my idea. Being alone may be a big problem for the past me, but now, is not a really big deal anymore. Give me some time, I'll give myself some time too, I'll totally change that kind of thinking.

I'm fear of the word lonely, maybe is because I have my sister and brother by my side since small. After my brother and sister went to Singapore, I'm alone here. I started to feel even fear this word after the moment they leave me.

That guy is really a professional advicer, after he enlighten me, I didn't think about that word anymore. Is it because I'm busying with my studies now? Just now I saw this word in my pal's blog, in a sudden, feeling like writing this blog.

Being alone is not a big deal actually, is just I'm the one who thinking that way. By the way, there is certain moment is more suitable to be alone.

" Try to open your heart, think carefully what is the real feeling in your heart. "

Friends, a very important character in my life. I'm I too dependent to my friends? Should I change this idea of mine?

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Monday, October 26, 2009

Gloomy

3:44 PM

I becomes gloomy after the Physics paper. Although I'm not really work hard on this subject, but I like this subject, Physics.

Sorry teacher, I can't take an A for Physics.

Sorry teacher, I don't know how to do the experiment part.

Sorry teacher, this paper is hard for me because I didn't study much.

Tomorrow's paper, Sejarah, even worse. I just studied chapter one only and the Sejarah paper 2 contains alot of marks. I don't want to fail Sejarah paper again but I'm sure that I will fail the paper.

Haiz, I'm not a cleaver girl. In another word, I'm a stupid girl.

Just now after my lunch, I almost throw up. Is not a big deal, normal for me...

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

Helpless

7:37 PM

Having Chinese paper one and Physics tomorrow.

Chinese, haven study. PLanned to study tomorrow morning.

Physics. Ms.Chad, sorry that I may not get an A this time. It's quite impossible.

Well, nothing to write for today. Just feel that, I'm helpless.

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Saturday, October 24, 2009

Again and again

10:57 PM

Suffer from stomach ache AGAIN!!!

I know I'm not a good girl, but can't you leave me alone? What had I done wrong? What had I eaten wrong?

Do you know now is my examing period? I need to concentrate. I'm lacking of concentration now and you snatch all my concentration away.

Or let us make a deal, okay? Today, you let my stomach suffer till any condition you like, but please let me go by tomorrow. Deal?

I know I'm not a good girl, but please just leave me alone...

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Net world

5:47 PM

Found a safe place to vomit everything out. Thanks for telling me that there is this web appear in this net world.

Haha, after I found this place, I almost spend my whole day time in this place.

Once again, thanks.

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Haiz

11:05 AM

Boring~~~!!

Just allow myself wondering around until the morning ends. After morning, I'll study, I swear. If I don't, I'll force myself till I do it. If still don't, ........

Mum going to old town with my auntie. I want to go but I do not want to go. I can't go, I have to study.

Study, study, study. Hate study but still have to study.

Oh well, just six more days, gambateh~~!!

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Friday, October 23, 2009

Crazy again

9:34 PM

Felt going crazy again. Will the exam's arrival be the reason of going crazy? Maybe...

Today I took my two hours nap and didn't study at all, another reason of going crazy. Can't concentrate well, so I surfed the net and watched Happy Tree Friends.

May I be one of the character in Happy Tree Friends?

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Just a concern

5:53 PM

English paper one had passed, gratz for finishing your paper..^^

Sometimes, that person may not know what you are really thinking if that person didn't really experience that incident before. The thing you had done is done, no more turning back. The best way to complement the matter you had done is, go and ply some medician.

Don't blame yourself too much, that is uncontrollable, I know. But from now on, please treat yourself better.

Gambateh~~!!

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Thursday, October 22, 2009

Exam

10:55 PM

Tomorrow's paper, BM 2 and BI 1.

OMG, these two subjects is also not my pro subject (actually I'm not very pro in any subject). I'm that fear I can't finish my studies for these two subjects. Wake up early tomorrow for study? Can't do that. If I do that, I may lack of energy when I'm sitting for my exam tomorrow.

One more way, I'll sleep later today. This will prevent myself from not finishing my studies and I no need to wake up early tomorrow too.

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Wednesday, October 21, 2009

The truth me?

4:50 PM

Who am I actually? A chinese? Ya, I'm a chinese that didn't master Chinese well, a chinese that unlike the language of Chinese. I didn't master English well too, so do Malay. I'm a weak girl, right?

My personality,
1) I don't like being alone, but I'm forcing myself to used to it in this lonely condition.
2) I do love my friends so much, I willing to do anything for my friends although I have to sacrifice myself.
3) I may be in a good temper in front of you, but I'm not really in a good mood that time.
4) I may be a schizophrenia patient, I'm confuse about my attitude when I'm in the school and at home. I can't differentiate which is the real me.
5) I may need something but I won't say it.
6) I'm poor in hiding my emotion, everything is written on my face although I don't really want it to. I'm trying my very best to learn how to hide myself.
7) I'll feel really guity when I done something wrong although I'm the one who doing wrong.
8) I'll express my happiness, sadness, anger, guilty in the same way.
9) I do feel jealous when everyone has a company but not me.
10) I'm the lazy one although I didn't look like one.

I think this is all I know about myself. I'll update this post when I think of something new.

I don't know myself well actually.

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Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Sad

2:32 PM

The view of study is back, I'm glad. But the bad temper of mine is still here. Hate myself for having such bad temper.

Actually, I still can't really concentrate well, but it is better than before. ^^

Oh well, today not going to Biology tuition too, sad. Still have to make a choice between Biology and Physics. I can't do two things in the same time, I'm a human, not a robot.

But today, for my condition, its better for me to attend Physics tuition.

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Study manaic

10:37 AM

Sejarah, still a weak subject for me. This final term exam, I may fail for this subject again.

Or maybe I can get at least a pass for my sejarah if I start to study that subject now? Oh well, better start study now, I'm lack of time. Study maniac, go go go!!! ^^

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Monday, October 19, 2009

Will

8:31 PM

Finally, my will of studying is backed!!! ^^ Finally...

I did the activity I mentioned before to summon my will back. It really works, everything needs sacrifices. Is okay, as long as everything back to normal. ^^

Hehe...read one chapter for Biology and after I will finish another chapter. Just left 3 more days before the exam. Is it too late for me to start studies?

My mood for today is always changing. From normal to gloomy, from gloomy to crazy, from crazy to aware, from aware to satisfied, from satisfied to happy. ^^

Today is a really meaningful day to me.

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Found you!!!

3:38 PM

Found a way to slighty summon my concentration back.

But, it is not a right way and it is unlogical. What is it? Sorry, I can't say it. Just keep it as a secret.

Everyone's busying now, can't really find a pal to chat with... Anyway, just keep it until the end of exam la, but I'm afriad that I can't really handle that so long.

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Bastard

2:51 PM

Still can't concentrate on my studies!!! Still will feel sleepy when I picked up my book. Even that I manage to pick up my book without closing my eyes, everything I read just can't enter my mind. I have to keep repeating the same SENTENSES until I get what the sentense really means. And the sentenses, actually is just as simple as ABC.

Exam will be held from this Thursday to the second coming Monday. Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, just three more days left!! and I still can't concentrate. Honestly, this incident never happen on me before, whats wrong actually?

Thinking of creating a fake accident to demolish this bastard, so that the world will return to the 19th century, the moment without the presence of this bastard. This kind of human living in the world, is just wasting all the useful material.

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Sunday, October 18, 2009

Freaked out

3:12 PM

Just woke up from my afternoon nap, I slept for 2 and the half hours. Long time didn't take such long afternoon nap already.

Although slept for such long time, but still feel very very tired. I planned to continue my nap, but today I just study a few pages of Biology, so, I dragged my heavy body up from the bed.

At first, I'm thinking of looking at friends blog first then only continue my studies (still in the sleepy condititon), but when I opened that blog, I saw something not scary but it's very scary in the first sight plus in the sleepy condition.

Now, I'm alittle regret on openning her blog in this time. This freaks me out. Next time, I think I won't open her blog just after my nap...

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Saturday, October 17, 2009

Coward

5:02 PM

Study? I'll study, but not now. Now, everything can't get in my mind although I force it to enter my brain.

I'm not the type that will study few weeks before the the exam's arrival. I'm the type that only will pick my book up and crazy studying at the eleventh o'clock.

Funny things do happen on me, if I start studying at the eleventh o'clock, everything will get in my brain easily and this will allow me to pass the exam too. So, I think I can stop studying now and start crazying here and there since everything I studied now can't go in my brian.

Angel: You should not think like that, you should study hard to avoid regreting in the future.

Devil: So what? Regret? Scare what? Study at eleventh o'clock also can la, so no need to waste your energy for studying la...

Hate myself for thinking like that, but this is the truth. I manage to pass all my exams in the same way. But do you know? That is the past. Last time, you are in Form 3, but now you are in Form 4. Form 4 is not as easy as you think. You think you can pass Form 4 by using the same way?

I know I must not use the same technique for the coming exam, but everything I read really can't enter my mind. Looking at the unstudied subjects, esspecially sejarah, I don't even want to touch those book anymore. I fear that I can't finish my syllabus. What a coward.

Nine more days left for the coming last term exam...

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Friday, October 16, 2009

Pretty incident

5:41 PM


This morning, Miss Chad asked us to attend Physics extra class from 8.30a.m. to 11a.m. I reached the school pretty early, 7.30a.m. due to parents still have to send goods.

When I reached school, just Miss Chad and Wen Jing are in the class. Miss Chad ask me, why you came so early? I answered her that my parents had to send some goods, so they leave me at school earlier. She showed me her 'cold' face and said, so you didn't come early to school to ask question la... Hehe^^ sorry teacher.

Miss Chad was incredible today. She rushed here and there between two classes.But unfortunely, she neglected us (Sc4 and Sc5), she only emphasize on the other class. Bad teacher.. Haha...^^

When she is teaching in the other class and we had done the homework that she gave us, we started making noise in the class. Me, Ming and Zakuro were playing our phone's camera. Three of ours phone were pointing on the same object, haha!!! You can escape from one of the phone, but can't escape from the other two phones...

I went back around 11 o'clock. Normally, my parents will fetch me quite late but not today. Why when I'm having fun, my parents love to fetch me home early? Whatever, I'm used to it to all these matter.

Next monday, Biology extra class. This time from 9a.m. to 12p.m. I Hope that the coming monday will be as fun as today. Gambateh!!!

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Rush

1:13 PM

Going Ipoh now. No time for blogging, no time for revision, no time for anything else.

Around night, I'll be back. That time, I'll start writing my blog.

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Thursday, October 15, 2009

Promise

4:56 PM

Haiz, no mood to study today. So, just rest for one more day la. Tomorrow start study okay? Promise?

This few days, I feel that my body is burning, but when I take my temperature, the temperature is not really high, just 37.2 degree only.

Can I cancel my eligible for the coming final exam?

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Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Non direction

10:03 PM

I don't know what to do now and don't think wanna do anything. But uncontrol, my mouth is working on something, bitting my own lips.

Should I do some revision? Sorry, no mood now. Watch some movies? Now not really a suitable time I think.

Torturing myself, one of my hobby. Uncontrollable...

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Hello~~

4:54 PM

Exam over lo~~ For one subject only la... Hehe ^^

Although just one subject, but I do really feel more relax. Because, the subject had done is Moral!!!

Moral is a subject that needs to memorize alot. Now this Moral paper is done, I can reformat my hard disk already. Clear all the information that won't be using this year.

Next Thursday, Pendidikan Sivik and Pendidikan Jasmani. This two subject no need to read la, I better use my memory card for another subjects. ^^

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Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Headache

4:05 PM

Physics tuition... Biology tuiton.... Why do I have to choose to attend which tuition? Why these two tuitions' time knocked together?

Physics teacher said that she may change the next year's Physics tuition time. She said maybe will replace Tuesday to Sunday. Haha, Sunday, even worse, can't make it.

Tuesday cannot, becuase next year I definitely will attend Biology class. Sunday, can't too, have to attend school practice. So how?

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Monday, October 12, 2009

Done!!!

10:56 PM

My supper, Moral nilai bidang 1 to 3. Done!!!

Okay now, go to bed. You still have to memorize bidang 4 to 7 tomorrow (can I just ignore it?)...

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Bad temper

7:50 PM

Today, busy doing homework. Until now still haven complete them all. Just now, doing Additional Maths, but can't do much question. Hate it..

Can't do Additional Maths, made my temper become bad. Because of this, parents mad at me now. Why my parents can accept my sister's bad temper but not mine?

Still have to memorize nilai for Moral exam. Haiz, I don't have enough time la. Can I cut my sleeping time? Or should I force myself memorizing half of the 36 nilai before going to bed?

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Sunday, October 11, 2009

Dead end

9:58 PM

Exam is just around the corner. The last term examination will start on 26 October and Moral and Pendidikan Sivik will be pushed forward, 14 and 15 of October.

The subjects that I had studied
Maths chapter 1 to 4
Additional Maths chapter1 to 5
Biology chapter 1 (useless)
Chemistry chapter 7 and 8 (roughly know only)

And the rest subjects that I didn't mention, unstudied.

If I still don't start study now, I think I'm going to the bottom class next year. I'm not really a cleaver girl, so can't guarantee I will pass the exam although I done all the homework gave by teachers.

Today is 11 October, exam starts on 26 October and I have only 15 days to do my revision. Don't forget, I still have to cut my sleeping time, eating time, bathing time, schooling time and so on. At last, just left roughly 4 to 5 days time I think. Enough? Definitely not enough. I'm not a robot, can't cut my sleeping time.

I don't want to drop class next year, I don't want to go to the better class either ( can you really manage to climb up to the higher class?). Honestly, I'm used to it studying in girls' class. Love my class now. Can I just maintain in my old class?

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Damn essay

4:33 PM

Just finish my chinese essay. Just simply write it, I wonder when teacher mark it, what is her's expression. Laugh, angry, no respons? I think she didn't see such low standard essay before la hor.

After came back from school still have to do homework, so tiring. But luckily I had done it ^^

Miss my friends~~

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Saturday, October 10, 2009

1:06 PM

Saturday is my free day, so I have to make use of my time, don't try to waste it again anymore.

Trying to complete my chinese essay now. After completing it, I'm gonna finish my Chemistry Chapter 7's note. Today's target, got to complete this two by today.

Afterwards about 6 o'clock, if the weather remain clear, I hope that my parents will take me and my doggie to the lake garden. Sunny day, good weather, good for outdoor activities.^^

Home alone now, but I have company, my doggie^^, but she is a sleeping beauty =.=

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Friday, October 9, 2009

Positive or negative?

8:24 PM

Between you and me, is it compulsory that one of us must be positive and the other will be negative?

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Oh gosh!!

8:15 PM

Today's dinner, porrige+ham egg+fried fish+bean sprout.

As everyone know, fish has alot of bones. When I consume my fish, I didn't clear all the bones from the fish and just eat it. As the results, the bone poked into my mouth, it stuck in my mouth, between my gum and teeth I think.

Luckily, my mouth didn't bleed but still felt that pain. My mom scolded me too. Whatever, is all my fault, I'm the one who not being careful.

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Is this a right decision?

4:22 PM

Yeah!! Today in school, I reached my target, that is completed my yesterday's assignment that I took to school.

I treated myself badly when I ordered myself to complete that assignment in school. My friends is chatting happily before lesson starts and during recess too, but I force myself not to join them. I forced myself not to turn my head over during recess when they are chatting happily.

During BM period, Hyin told me that she and a gang of friends are chatting about mushrooms, but I replied her, today, I'm not really interested in what topic are you guys chatting. Why I reply her in such way? I'm sure that this is not the true answer, but why did I said that?

Giving too much pressure to myself? Maybe, maybe not. I'm just forcing myself to finish the assignment, didn't think much beside that. Never think that what I really want. I know I want to chat but not doing assignment, but I ordered myself not to do that.

During Sejarah period, Ms.Choy came in the class to complete the 101 card. Everyone is laughing about their own past. I'm laughing too, I know that. If not mistaken, I heard Ming said that I mood became better, right?

Thats the real me, smiling, laughing but not gloomy. Maybe due to the exam is just around the corner, I forced myself not to be myself. Crazy right? I feel I'm crazy too. Forcing myself be I what I don't like to be just because the exam is around the corner.

Ming, sorry that just now I raised my voice when I'm talking to you. Actually, thats what I want, friend acompany me, playing with me but I just ignore what I really want. Is this right for treating myself like that?

Is there anyone knows my really well? My parents? My siblings? It isn't any I think. Even myself also don't know what I really want, won't know what's wrong with me either.

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Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Tears

8:41 PM

Dropped a few tears in the class today. Reason? A very nonsence reason. The reason is I got scared after listening ghost story told by Ms.Choy.

Actually I didn't mean to cry today, but after listenning that stories, I can't control myself, it just drop like that...

Silly girl right? Crazy girl right? Did anybody cried because of listenning ghost story? I think I'm the only want that act like this.

Shu Ting said that she afriad of ghost too, but she won't act like me although she's fear too. As I said, only I'm the one who act like that.

Hyin, you no need to blame yourself la, this is just my own problem, fear of ghost since small. No need to feel dissapointed to yourself. Thanks for your concern and accompany me...

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Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Back to normal

9:58 PM

Sister just abroad her bus and when ahead to Singapore. Everything return normal.

During the period she came back, my daily activities had changed. Everything is done not as planned. But now, she's back to Singapore, is the time to let me back to normal.

Now as usual, start doing my homework, do revision, thingking nonsence and so on...

Okay, bath time then start complete all my assignment. After that, bed time...

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Monday, October 5, 2009

Menu

5:10 PM

Sister is backed and she will reyurn to Singapore tomorrow night by bus. So, we had planned our menu for tonight's dinner, tomorrow's breakfast , lunch and dinner.

Today's lunch, we went to Flemingtion. This is the first time my sister went there. I think she love the scenery at the roof top too..^^

Tonight's dinner, after returning from Kati, we will take our lunch at Taiping Pizza Hut. Long time didn't concume pizza already..^^

Tomorrow's breakfast, I'm not going becuase I'm still schooling. My parents and sister will go to the restaurant that only cost RM2 per plate of food. Cheap and delicious, nice!!

Tomorrow's lunch, we planned to visit the restaurant 金玉满堂 (X-Lido restaurant). This is her first time eating there too...

Tomorrow's dinner, we planned to visit the train station roti canai shop, our favourite roti canai shop. We started eat the roti canai there since we are small.

Unfortunately, my sister wants to visit Sushi King but we don't have enough time. Next time la...^^

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Sunday, October 4, 2009

Busy day

11:04 PM


Today after school practice, my family and I went to Pinang to fetch my sister. She went to Pinang by plane from Singapore.
After fetching her, we and my mother's friend went to a restaurant located at the sea side to take our dinner.
When we are heading our way to the restaurant, my sister opened my bag pack. She saw my rubik's cube. She told me that recently, she started playing that too. How nice..^^
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Just now I opened my mailbox, I found out that my cousin send me a mail. I didn't prepare any
precaution and didn't think what the mail will be. I just opened it. I was not a fun mail. That mail frightened me. It was an adnormal mail.
Oh well, although I'm still alittle adnormal now, I still have to go to bed. See ya...

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Saturday, October 3, 2009

Mooncake Festival

10:05 PM

During childhood, Mooncake Festival is really a enjoying season.

Few years back, my sister, my cousin and I will start playing candle in the night. But now, no more candles, no more lantern, no more light.

The only activities I will do during Mooncake Festival is, surffing net, watching television, play rubik's cube, do some notes and so on.

At first, my parents and I planned to visit the lake garden. My friends and I planned to meet there too. But at last, because of the rain, everyone went home, no more gathering.

The Mooncake Festival of this year, is meanningless. No round bright moon, didn't see any candles or lantern.

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Rubik's Cube

10:13 AM


Yesterday I went to Taiping Central with my parents. Before I enter the cinema, I bought my first rubik's cube.

Just a beginner of this game, trying my best to master it. ^^

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Friday, October 2, 2009

0210

3:48 PM

Today, Ming, Hyin and I chat alot. Or maybe I have to say in this way, they talked alot, share alot of their experiences and I hear alot, talk less.

Love story, it is so lovely in the fairy tale but of course, not in this cruel world. But if you are lucky, you may find a good partner.

After hearing their conversation, I think I learnt alot. As I told them, I had learnt alot from you guys, just didn't own any experiences only. Haha ^^

After school, I went to SPBT room with Hyin. Thinking of helping her alittle with her SPBT work, but not for today. She can't do anything because she can't find her teacher.

Holding such high post, must be really stress, very tired. So, if anything I can help, call me la, although I'm not sure how much I manage to help you reduce your pressure.

Received a late wish from my old friend this morning in school. Although is abit too late, but anyway, thanks for your wish, thanks for remembering my birthday.

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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Rojak

8:29 PM

Just back from Ipoh, took a bath, took my dinner. Now, let me rest for awhile before I start doing my assignment.

In Ipoh, I bought six egg tarts, thinking of taking to school tomorrow and share with my lovely friends.

Hyin, be more positive oo~~ Anything unhappy, say out la, don't hide in your heart. Gambateh!!

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Late now

1:01 AM

Oops, what is the time now? 1.01a.m.!!! My mum is yelling at me, its late now, why are you still not on your bed?

Just completed my journal, a lousy journal. All because of this journal, cause me awake in the middle of the night.

Okay, its really late now, bed time...

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Monday, September 28, 2009

No information no journal

8:24 PM

How do I gonna finish my journal? All my information is in my desktop but my desktop got virus, now in computer shop repairing.

The journal, Ms. Choy said she want it tomorrow. How? No information how to do journal?

Hope that Ms.Choy won't call me to present mine tomorrow. But tomorrow 2 English period, oh my god!!!

Die, going to die...

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Assignment

3:57 PM

Assignment, assignment, assignment. The first day of schooling then so many assignments.

Why all the teachers only concentrate on their own subject? Why they don't know that this will make students suffer? Although doing homework will improve our study skills, but don't forget, too many of them will kill us too.

Well, I better start doing my assignments now. I still have alot of thing waiting for me to do.

Study Biology...
Do Maths and Add Maths revision book...

All waiting for me.

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Sunday, September 27, 2009

The end

8:43 PM

Today, the last day of the school holiday.

Just back from Matang, I ate my dinner there with my parents and parent's friend. I ate 6 prawns, long time didn't eat so much prawn already.

Okay, after my parent's friend go back to Butterworth, I'll go and take my bath first then try to do my abit of my revision.

Today's blog, just let it be short and simple.

Bye, Mr.Holiday...

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Friday, September 25, 2009

Holiday ending

10:21 AM

Haiz, holiday is ending. May I own a time machine? I want to return to the first day of school holiday.

This holiday, didn't do much revision, didn't do much homework but play alot, crazy alot =.=

Today, I must finish my essay, finish my Add Maths chapter 3, finish my Sejarah bab 7.

Today's assignment not much, so please finish these before the day ends.

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Thursday, September 24, 2009

Tired

11:16 PM

Just back from Hyin's house and straight away went to bathroom to take a bath.

Today has only one tuition, but I feel very tired too due to the sickness like headache, running nose and so on.

Now, better go to bed immediately. Because I think if I don't go to bed now, I surely can't wake up tomorrow and my gastric will definitely kill me again...

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So sick

11:35 AM

Sneezing for the whole morning, what happen actually? Whatever, it will pull through later.

After wiping the windows, I got a headache and now, still paining. When will this pain leave my head? I have no idea.

What happen to me actually? All kinds of sickness love to visit me. Stomach pain, itchyness, headache, running nose and so on. What next?

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Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Add Maths

11:02 PM

Finally I completed my Add Maths. I used a long time to finish it.

I think I have to train myself more. I need to train my speed while doing Add Maths. Add Maths need to do quickly, if not during exam, I can't finish the paper again. Haiz...

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Wasting time again

3:45 PM

I spent 3 hours outside just now, I purpose to study that time, but I went out with my parents (parents ask me to, not I want to go out).

Before going out, I do really have alittle of mood to study, but the mood dissapear right after parents said that we wanna go out. Well, I know that, I gonna waste my time again.

My lunch, a plate of nasi lemak and a cup of barli. Nasi lemak, quite spicy, but I ate them too. My mum says, can you eat that? Its quite spicy. I just reply, nevermind la, just eat it, as long as there are toilet around.

Stomach pain, no big deal! Rushing to toilet is now apart of my daily activities. As long as there are toilet around, is okay for everything.

Now, I think I have to start doing my assignment now, although I hate that.

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Happy Hour ends

10:46 AM

Today is Wednesday, just a few more days before school reopen and I didn't even touch any of my assignments.

Just give myself one more hour, after the hour end, my happy hour is over. Is time to study, is time to do assignment, is time to do revision, although I really don't like and don't have the mood to do it.

How to let me do the thing that I don't really want to do? Use force la, no other choices. Happy hour is really ending, don't think back what you did yesterday, what you did before. Just stop thinking everything and do the thing that you surpose to do.

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Tuesday, September 22, 2009

22th of September

10:12 PM










Wah, today is my 16 year old birthday. Old a year again already, haiz. But today is a happy day.
Tracey, Zakuro, Jia Yi, Hyin and I went to Taiping Central today. We celebrate my birthday there. Firstly, Zakuro, Hyin and I went to Old Town to take our breakfast. The food taste not bad, but it is alittle too expensive.Add Video
After that, Tracey and Jia Yi came. Tracey, Jia Yi and I went to watch 'The Final Destination 4' while Hyin and Zakuro went to watch 'Where Got Ghost'. The Final Destination 4, at first I thought it will be a scary show. But it isn't. It is a quite exciting movie, luckily I decided to watched at the last minute.
When all of us finish watching, we went to Sushi King and take our high tea. I took alot of pictures there. I feel that everyone's look nice in the picture, but not me. Haha... Later, we went to Biology tuition. This is the first time I attend the Biology tuition. The Biology teacher's teaching is quite good, I can understand it easily. But it only take 1 and 15 minutes time for a week and it is quite expensive.
I received 5 presents today, never receive so many presents before, so happy^^. Thanks, my pal for giving me the presents. I'll appreciate them. Thanks friends, love you all....

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Monday, September 21, 2009

Black sheep

10:29 PM

Just one and the half hour to go before 22th of September arrive. What day is tomorrow? 22th of September? My birthday? Is it true? Why don't I feel the happiness of welcoming the arrival of my 16th birthday?

Yin, sorry. I know I promised you before that I'll be more positive, but I still can't make it. My brain is crushing me. I can't stop thinking all the negative thing. They are always in my mind, can't get rid off them. Failed to complete that mission.

Itchy itchy itchy, my body is always itchy. And now, I need tablets and cream to get rid off the itchyness. Hate that, really hate that. Can't you just leave me alone? Itchyness, stomach ache, really making me crazy. Suffer!!!!!!!

Parents are complaining about me again. My mom said that I always work for the school, didn't help to do housework. Do you really think that I want to work for the school? The school problem is another matter that made me crazy. She also said that I always sms, always sleep, always do other thing. Always sms? Are you sure? I'm always finding a friend to talk to but not a single one that I manage to find.

As other says, if both of the parent have the same sur name, the children of theirs will be a stupid children. My brother, my sister, they are smart, unlike me, the stupid one, the idiot one. Black sheep, am I the black sheep in my family? Always get scolded my parents. Stupid thing.

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Hate it

12:50 PM

Stomach pain again, hate that. This made my mood really down.

Stomach pain? So what.

Stomach pain still have to go to Kar Ling house and practice.
Stamach pain still have to get scolded.
Stomach pain still have to study.
Stomach pain still have to face the cruel life.

I'm thinking, what is the motif for my arrival 16 years ago...

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Sunday, September 20, 2009

Precious

6:41 PM

Yesterday, I spend my whole day in Hyin's house. My parents went to Kuala Lumpur and I have to go to school in the next day (today). So, I stayed in her house for a night.

When Hyin when to her Physics tuition, it was too boring to stay at home. So, I decided to walk to Salty Min's house to pay a visit. Her house is really big and nice. One more thing, my auntie's house is just beside her house. I don't even know this until the moment I reached her house.

At 6 o'clock, I walked back to Hyin's house. Is raining that time, Salty Min forced me to take her umbrella home. I took the umbrella although I really don't want to take it. I want to walk under the rain to wash away all the mist in my head. So, I closed the umbrella in the next minute after I turned a corner.

Hyin's is backed now, and the rain stops too, so we decided to give the umbrella back to Salty Min. Hyin drove her Pinku there and I walked to there again. After returning the umbrella, Hyin drove her Pinku around and I she asked me to walk back to her house immediately. Although I really want to walk longer, but to prevent her from worrying, I just walk back to her house but in a slower movement.

Dinner time!!! Talking about yesterday's dinner, this is the time I ate the whole big piece of tomato and a big mushroom. Tomato, taste not bad, but the mushroom, it doesn't really suit my taste. After saying the sentence ' I don't take vegetable', Hyin immediately grab a piece of vegie and put on my plate. Haiz... But is okay, since you had grabbed for me, I'll just eat it..^^

Around ten o'clock, finally I took my bath (if my mum knows this, she will definitely kill me). This is the time I normally go to bed, but yesterday is different. In this time, I'm on my bed, but not sleeping, is chatting. Hyin and I chat for about three and the half hours. What a long journey. I broke my record again, about 1.30a.m., then I only close my eyes and try to fall asleep.

This conversation between Hyin and I is a precious moment. We really chat alot, we told each other the thing that kept in the heart for a long long time. I'm sure that after this conversation, we will know each other better than before. Nothing is hidden between us during this conversation, included the smile and the tear, nothing is fake, all real.

In the next morning (today), I woke up at seven o'clock. After taking my bath and my breakfast, Hooi Ming came. I left the house about 7.40a.m.

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Friday, September 18, 2009

18th of September

11:18 PM

Around 10 o'clock in the morning, I reached Taiping Central. Salthy Min sms me that her mother didn't want to fetch her here and she didn't give me a conclusion.

10.45 a.m., Tracey and Salthy Min reached Taiping Central. Before that, while waiting for them, I had a 45 minutes walk around the compound. I walked to Tesco and back Taiping Central, here and there about two rounds. During this journey, my mind is thinking something. It stops thinking when I saw them arrived.

Firstly, we when to Mc Donald for our breakfast. This is the first time I consume Mc Donald's breakfast. It taste quite good, the egg in the hamburger is cute too. But after drinking the coffee, my stomach feel uneasy. Haiz...

I broke my record, this is the first time I watched two movies in a day. Not only that, I watched ghost story too. This is the first time I watch ghost story, and it may be the last time I watch it. I can't stand the sound and the sudden shock in the movie. I blocked my eyes several times when I'm watching that movie.

Tracey went home first. Salty Min and I have a little chat at the Starbucks Coffee shop. From the conservation, I learned and realised alot about the others. She asked me a question too, but I don't really know what is the real answer although I do give her my answer.

After Salty Min went home, I went to the K2 cloths shop. I saw a shirt that really attracted me. I'm thinking of buying it, but my parents called up. Nevermind, I'll buy it another day, I told myself. Now, I feel kinda regret, I should buy that shirt in the same time I saw it.

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Thursday, September 17, 2009

Oh No!!!!

11:33 PM

As usual, Tracey and I went to Hyin's house every Thursday for Chemistry tuition.

During waiting for Tracey's arrival, auntie and Hyin are taking their dinner and later, auntie gave me a cup of water (forgotten what watter already). After finish that cup of water, as my daily activity, I'll take the cup to the kitchen and wash it by myself.

During the process of washing my cup, I saw there are some plates in the basin. As my mother told me, when you see there are plates in the basin, just help to wash it. So, I washed them all. I'm just thinking of helping a little, and I have nothing else to do that time.

When I'm washing, I feel that somebody is at the back. I turned my head, I saw Hyin. Hyin asked me to stop washing the plates, just leave the work for her worker. I'm just try to help to do something, for replacing the trouble I brought to them.

Is time for tuition!!! Why everytime during tuition, I just can't just finish my lesson normally? The first time, I get gastric. Second time, anything happen? Third time, today, I body started to itchy.

When my body itchy, Hyin's body itchy too. Am I the one who cause her body to itchy too? For assumption, I think better don't go too near her, after her body get even worse. I surely don't want to give her any troble. Feel guity, sorry...

When my parents and I reached home, I show I parents both of my hands. My mom says, now your body is so sensitif, so you better don't punch your ear tomorrow. Oh No!!!! I want to punch my ear tomorrow, can you allow me to punch it tomorrow?

Okay, going to sleep now, tomorrow going to Taiping Sentral with my friends. Itchyness, you better get rid of my body as fast as possible. Don't bring troubles to me!!! Go away!!!!!

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Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Massage

6:56 PM

Just backed from Kuala Kurau. The uncle massaged my hand. Just a few minutes massage, a few sound produced by my hand, it cost RM50.

RM50!!! Not a small amount le. I can buy many things with that RM50. Kinda regret now. If I have the chance to redecide, I think I rather let my hand pain forever also don't want to spend that RM50.

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Suffering...again

12:05 AM

Now, I'm suffering from stomach pain. Did I eat anything wrong just now? I don't think so, I just ate half of a ba zhang and drank a bowl of corn soup only, why this will made me suffer from stomach pain?

Now, Yin is forcing me to take some rest. I will listen to her, but I'm fear. I fear when I'm sleeping, my stomach will pain again, and I need to get up from bed and rush to the toilet again. I don't want!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I think I'll just go and sleep now. If my stomach pain again, I have no choice, but just rush to the toilet...

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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Physics or Biology

3:42 PM

Just now I show my parents my results. My mum said to me that my Maths and Additional Maths are very weak, do you want to take tuition for this to subjects? I didn't respon.

After I come out from the bathroom, I mum ask me to stop Physics tuition and take the Biology tuition. Her reason is, my Physics is okay now, and I am interested in Physics, so I can learn by myself. But my Biology is quite weak, so she ask me to take Biology tuition.

What should I do now? Quit Physics tuition and take Biology tuition? Or continue my Physics tuition and leave my Biology by aside?

Any opinion? I really don't know what to do...

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Monday, September 14, 2009

Itchyness

9:16 PM

Since the day I fell sick, my body starts to become very sensitif. But actually, I don't know what I'm sensitif to. Coldness, dirtyness, seafood?

Now, both of my hands are growing white dots, my skin turn into red in colour, and both of my hands are so itchy. Terrible...

Is there anyway to cure this sickness? Let me fall sick again? By this way, will it cure? But there's a good news, after the white dot cures, there are no scars will be found on my hand. Luckily....

Can you stop this right now? You really making me suffer from itchyness!!! Or you want to see me scratching my hand until my hand start bleeding? Suffering....

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Sunday, September 13, 2009

Lazy girl

5:48 PM

Is it necessary for very students to study? Can a students stop study?

Can I stop study? I really hate study although I know a student must study.

I'll study, but later. I have no mood to study now. Don't force me, I hate study.

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Saturday, September 12, 2009

Finally

5:17 PM

Finally, I done all my assignments. Although it is not 100% complete, but at least I tried my best to complete it.

Okay, you had finished your assignment, so when will I start study? Actually, I'm not sure. If after I'm not going out, I'll start my studies.

Tomorrow have to go school for trainning, really tired. Be patient, just suffer for half more year, after that, you are free. So, just be patient.

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Home alone

11:45 AM

Home alone, quite a long time didn't I experience this feeling since I'm going out with my parents every early in the morning.

My parents went out to the bus station for sending some goods. So, I the chance to experience home alone. Usually, my parents won't allow me to stay alone at home due to the condition of the compound area of my house.

Staying alone at home, so that I have more time to complete my assignment. Due to the hot weather, I do feel sleepy. But I find some ways to stop myself from sleeping.

I told myself, I must finish my assignment before the day ends.

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Friday, September 11, 2009

Wondering

10:05 PM

Wondering, why I do feel that today has more than 24hours.

Wondering, should I show her that file that I want to show her.

Wondering, what will she feel, what is her respond after seeing the file.

Wondering, why that Chemistry exercise book is out of stock.

Wondering, do I manage to finish my homework before Monday.

Wondering, will I start study from this weekend.

Wondering, when will I have the chance to pounch a whole on my ear...

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Thursday, September 10, 2009

Extra Tuition

10:56 PM

Beginning from today, every Thursday, I'll be outside from morning till night.

Firstly in the morning, I'll be at school studying. Next during afternoon, I'll go to CRC and take a bath then walk to tuition center for my English tuition.

Okay now, the last destination, Yin's house. I'm joining her mother's Chemistry tuition class. Members are Yin, Tracey and me. One important thing, this tuition is free!!!

OMG!!! How can I attend a free tuition class? Nevermind, begin from today, I'll just treat my teacher's daughter better than before. Haha...

While waiting for Tracey's arrival, Yin and I had a chat in her bedroom. While we are chatting about our experiences, we were smiling, not crying, although the experience is really painful.

Only both of us, know that pain, know that feeling, because, both of us had been through alot...

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Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Conclusion?

9:42 PM

This morning when I return to my class with Jia Yi, I saw Woei sitting at my place and chatting with Ming and Yin.

Suddenly, I stopped, thinking quietly, should I walk to my place? Is it the suitable time for me to walk towards there? Will I interrup their conversation if I'm present?

Honestly, after that day, I do feel uneasy when I see that particular friend chatting at aside. So, I'll just choose to leave the class like this morning, waitting at aside until they finish their conversation, or just doing my things quietly at one corner.

I know I can't behave like this, but I really can't control myself. Hate myself for acting like this. Hate that feeling too.

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Busy

4:10 PM

As it planned, my family and I should be at Ipoh now. But I don't know why, the plan changed, and I'm going to Butterworth later.

Sorry Woei, I can't help you to buy the book already, I'm not going to Popular today. Maybe other day? Tomorrow's Chemistry tuition, we have to borrow book again. Haiz...

Yin, do you feel better now? So worry about you just now, hope you will recover in a short time ^^. And one more thing, you are doing your best now, so don't worry. Just be what you wanna be, don't think what are others thinking. Still remember? You are the one who told me this.

Now, I should do my homework quickily, finish them in the fastest speed. If I still own some extra time, I'll allow myself to online...

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Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Stupid girl

9:34 PM

Wow!! Now only I know that my Physics's tuition's teacher is my brother's Physics teacher too.

She saw me in my parents' car just now, she and my mum were chatting about my brother and me later. =.= She said that my brother is smarter than me (its true).

Later, my parents and I went to the hocker stall and take our dinner. My mum told me that my teacher said that I'm not smart as my brother. 'Ya, I didn't say I was smart before', I replied. After saying that, I get scolded by my mom.

What's wrong, why you scold me? Everyone knows that this is the truth, I'm not smart, this is the truth.

I'm stupid, I'm not smart, this is the truth, please admit this.

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Secrets

3:26 PM

Having secrets between friends is a normal thing. So, just want to tell you guys something.

You guys need not worry that I will feel sad or even angry when you guys having secrets. Having secrets between you guys is your own authority, I don't have the right to want to know everything.

I won't feel sad or angry, because, I don't have the right to do that. If you guys want to tell me, then you guys will tell me and vice versa.

Anyway, do what as you guys like la, as long as you guys feel happy, everything is find for me!

The authority is yours, not mine. It will never be mine...

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Monday, September 7, 2009

Sorry

7:25 PM

Sorry, I didn't study at all for today.

Sorry, I only did my karangan today, and I didn't do it seriously.

Sorry, I used my whole afternoon time to online, chat with friends.

Sorry, I should not use the hot weather as a excuse to stop study, stop doing homework.

Sorry, for not being a good girl.

Sorry, sorry.

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Full stomach

11:56 AM

Today's breakfast, so full. My family and I ate buffet in Flemington, taking food for first round, second round, third round and so on...

Don't know why, I can't eat much now. The past me, can consume alot of food, but not now. After second round, its enough, can't eat anymore. But the others, they will continue their third round and forth round, even my grandmother do so.

Is it my health problem? Of course not!! Or maybe my body is helping me to keep fit. Haha

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Sunday, September 6, 2009

New profession

10:57 PM

Today, my uncle brought my cousin and I to somewhere near Bukit Larut. We went there for training my uncle's German Sherperd. The dog's name is Major.

My uncle expect that there will be no people traning their dogs today, but one of the uncle is there. I called him uncle Ricky.

This uncle, taught me alot this evening. He taught me the way to post a dog, the way to turn a dog's direction when leading them and so on.

Uncle Ricky told me that, I had the potential to be a dog handle. He asked me to ask my father to bring me here every Saturday and Sunday so he can train me.

So happy to have the change to be a trainey, can I just dream to be a dog handle when I grow up?

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Saturday, September 5, 2009

Hot weather

3:00 PM

Why the weather is so hot? If this continue, I think I'm going to transform into a BBQ chicken. Then I have free BBQ chicken to consume. =.=

But actually, I should thanks to the hot weather. This hot weather made my mind clearer. My life still have a long way to go, even I am happy nor sad. So, why don't I just face this world happily?

After my mind is cleared, I feel happier now, mood is better compare to this morning. Thanks to god.

Okay, my mind is clear enough now, can the weather turn cooler? I'm really gonna burn up now.

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Recall

11:12 AM

Today's breakfast, we ate wan tan mee at the hocker stall.

When I finished my breakfast, I look at the table that my friends and I sat before. Then I recall what we had done that day,what we had said that day, what a happy day.

If I own a time machine, I want to reverse the time, let the time stop at the only day, that happy day.

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Saturday

10:31 AM

Today is Staurday, as usual, I'll go out with my parents early in the morning. Then we will take our breakfast before we heading back to home.

Mood, still pale, similiar like yesterday. When I'm in ther car, I have nothing else to do, so I just put on my earphone, listen to the music, and thinking nonsence again.

Well, why am I wasting my time? Why don't I use this time to do my homework or revision? It is better compare to thinking nonsence.

Nobody know what am I thinking, included me.

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Friday, September 4, 2009

Whatever

10:00 PM

Secrets, everyone have secrets. Me? I have secrets too, I think.

As I told one of my friend before, I don't really like having unknown secrets between me and my friend. I have to change this option, I can't be like that, is not good being like that.

Whatever, be what everyone wanna be, as long as everyone is happy. But, I'm I happy now? Not really I think. What is the reason, I don't know. I just know that I can't really smile now, even I smile, it looks so fake.

I know I must be happy, I must smile. But I really can't. Sorry...

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Are you happy?

9:15 PM

I took a quiz in facebook, the title is Are You Happy?

The results is

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life. But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it. Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career. Somethin...g is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

Is it true? Do I need to find a way to make me even happier?

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Gloomy again

4:30 PM

This morning we had a 'morning walk' during PJ period. After the 'morning walk', I fake sleep alone on the bench.

During fake sleeping, I do think of joining Hooi Ming and Sean Chin's conversation. But what I gonna do if I just bumb in like that? Laugh with them? Sorry, I'm not in the mood of laughing. Just break their conversation? Aren't you being rude enough?

After that, I'm thinking joining Yin's conversation group. But that even worse, what can I say in that group? What can I do there?

Whatever, I better continue my fake sleep activity. Being alone doing something nonsence, not a bad idea actually.Feel like going to my hidden place that time...

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Thursday, September 3, 2009

1351

7:17 PM

Loneliness, I thought it is a friend of mine, I thought I had manage to handle it properly, I thought I'm not fear od it anymore. But unfortunately,I'm wrong. I fail to handle that feeling, I'm still fear of being lonely.

3 September 2009, 1.51p.m., this is the time whenI get in my parents vehicle. Before that, everyone had gone, I'm only the one still waiting for my parents to fetch me home. Feel so lonely that time ,I'm really fear of that feeling. It became worse after receiving a simple sentence from a friend, the sentence had broken the fragile heart of mine. That sentence made me feel even lonely.

I'm finding a person, a person that I can rely on, a person that allow me to lend on theirs shoulder, a person that can acompany me. I'm crying again, is there anyway to stop my tears from dropping down?

Lonely Doggie, a name that suits me well, forever and ever.

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Apologize

7:07 PM

Teacher, I'm so sorry for my behavier towards you. Actually, I'm didn't notice that I'm rude when I'm speaking to teacher, not until the moment my friend told me.

The main reason why I didn't realize my mistake is, I'm treating my teachers and friends in the same way. The way I talk to my teachers is slightly similiar when I'm talking to my friends.

Actually, I didn't mean to be rude in front of teacher, I'm just kidding that time. I'm the person who always talk that kind of way. I'll change attitude as fast as I could.

Conclusion, sorry teacher.

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Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Crush by David Archuleta

8:15 PM

Beginning from a certain day
I fall in love with this song
Crush by David Archuleta
I feel that the lyrics of this song is meaningful
listenning this song make me feel comfortable


I hang up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility
that you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush

Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross you mind
When were hangin, spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush

Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away,goin away

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can beWhere this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush

Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

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As usual

3:08 PM

"Finally", I found the mistake in my Maths paper that made me regret. Although I told myself not to do any mistake in my exam, but I failed to do that.

Bad Maths results. If I didn't do any mistake in my Maths paper, maybe I can get at least an A2 for my Maths. But now, just a B, just a B.

I hate myself for always make nonsence mistake. I hate myself for can't handle everything properly. I hate myself for being so useless. I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself.

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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Results

4:08 PM

Today, 8 of our teachers had return our test paper. The results, quite nice, not really disapointed, didn't make any big mistake that make me regret. Good Job!!! I should work harder for the next term exam.

Ogos exam, I had improved alot (I think). I get and A for my English and Physics, so happy. ^^ The other two Science subjects, not bad, the results are quite nice. In the next term, it would be better.

Next, the language subject. As usual, Chinese is the worst, then Malay and the best is English. Although I'm a Chinese, but I hate Chinese, funny right?

Ogos term exam, I'm not the only one who improved, Hooi Ming and Hui Yin improved too!! Gratz!! Especially Hui Yin, you did it, I'm sure that everyone know that you're doing your best, sure that everyone know that you really put all your effort on your studies. So, Gambateh!! You'll do better in your last term exam!!!

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Monday, August 31, 2009

31th Ogos

9:56 PM

Today is 31th Ogos, its my mother's birthday too. My family and I celebrate my mother's birthday in Flemington. We ate our dinner there.

When I'm on the way to Flemington, I recall the memory of the day that I spend with my two friends. Like nobody's business, I smile like a mad, my mother and my cousin said that I'm mad. Wednesday, the road around there, full of sweet memories.

When I sit in the restaurant, I saw Hooi Ming. I quickily ask her to come out to have a talk. Well, chatting the same topic, laughing like a mad again. Good thing, smile more.^^

Later, Hooi Ming and I met Hui Yin at the top of the Flemington. This is the second time we chat there, laugh there, what a good moment. Really hope that in the future, there're still have the chance to chat around in the same way.

After two of them went home, is the time to return to my sit. When I sat down, the food on the table is empty. Haha, this is the chance for me to diet, how nice.^^ But luckily I didn't eat much food, because I ate one and the half pieces of my mother's birthday cake... =.= So full.

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I'm back from Singapore!!!

10:32 AM

This morning about 7.30a.m., my family and I reached Simpang. My uncle and auntie came and fetch us. After that, we went to Kim Loong to eat breakfast.

This two days one night Singapore trip, so tiring but worthly. This trip made me slightly change my mind. This trip let me know that this world is cruel, without something, you can't even stand up.

Tomorrow I have to go school again. Running away is a coward way, so I just gonna face it. Actually, I hate study, I hate all my book, but I had been forced to study them, read them. I'm not a bookworm, but I don't know why some of my friends will call me bookworm. I hate books!!

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Sunday, August 30, 2009

Boring Day

3:18 PM

Today is the second day hanging around Singpore. Just few more hours, I'll take a night bus and back to Taiping.

Boring here.... Now I'm in my brother's friend's house. My family and I took our lunch here. After our lunch, we are free, we didn't go anywhere. Nothing to do now, boring.

Two more days to go, before the school reopen. I want to go school, because staying at home is really boring. I want to go school, because I want to play with my friends.

But sometimes I feel that I don't really want to go school. I'm so tired now, didn't rest enough.Feel like wanna to sleep where ever I sit.

Conclusion, boring~~~

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Saturday, August 29, 2009

After A Day

10:06 PM

In the afternoon, my sister took my parents and I to the Orchod Road.I took some pictures there, it is quite fun. The place are so nice, some of the thing I don't even see it before. Of course, the price of the thing selling there are also very 'nice'... =.=

After that, we went to visit the Merlion. It was so beautiful. I took some pictures of the Merlion in a far distance. Later, my brother took us to a restaurant to consume huge hamburger. The food serving there is all in huge size. This is the first time I see a such big hamburger.

After walking for a whole day, my legs are so tired. But I think these pain is worthly.I don't really have much chance hanging around Singapore. So, I'll spend my last day(tomorrow) wisely before I return to Malaysia.

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Singapore

10:30 AM

About 7.a.m., my family and I reached Singapore. After we alighted from the bus, I saw my brother. Now, he lead us to my sister's living place. Firstly, we sat LRT and then take a bus to reach here (my sis's living place).

Haiz, really boring now, nothing to do now. My brother and my mom were sleeping beside me, my father were sleeping on a chair, my sis went outside to take a bath, and I, writing blog here.

Suddenly, I miss Taiping, I miss my friends.I'm so boring here, can anyone take me out and visit Singapore? Feel like wanna cry...

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Friday, August 28, 2009

Online again

6:15 PM

Finally I can online again. Everything back to normal. Are you sure everything back to normal? No, definitely no. Physically, ya but mentally, no. Things had changed.

Tonight, I'll be arriving to Singapore, but it is not happy as I think. At first, I really feel happy, but not now anymore. I don't know what had happen, I just know that my mood is not right now.

I just read a friend's blog. Quite disapointed, although I knew that earlier. I thought I can help her, but everything didn't occur as I want. I tried everything, it didn't help I think. She's still the same, still the same.

Well, although I feel disapointed, but I'll still acompany her quietly. I'll wait until the moment that she willing to open that door. But if she really don't, is okay, as long as she's happy.

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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Free Day

12:28 PM

Finally I can have a rest now. This is the first day I rest since the start of the holiday. I'll gonna spend my today's time in Mayuki house, because there is a team work that we have to complete.

The day of Wednesday starts. Firstly, I went to Mayuki house about 9a.m., then we went to Flemington to wait for Hooi Ming. At first, we planned to eat in Flemington, but after that, we changed our mind.

At last, we walked to the hocker stall to eat our breakfast. hen we went to Pam's house to pay a visit. She were shocked, totally shocked. This is the first time I pay a visit to my teacher's house with my friends. Haha!!!

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Sunday, August 23, 2009

Swollen and painful hand

9:56 PM

In every school holiday, the are surely have to leave some time for Orkestra Cina. Today is the first day of the camp, but luckily, we don't need to overnight in the school this time and there are only 3 days.

End of November, there are an orkestra competition, and I'm goona take part too. For this coming competition, the orkestra teacher had choosen a song for us, 中阮摇滚。This song is a fast, interesting song. Because of it is a fast, 'violent', I used alot of of strengh to pratice it.

At the end, my muscle are hurt now, both of my hand are painful and swollen. I can't even raise my hand in a higherlevel. Haiz...my own fault. How do I gonna play the instrument tomorrow? Teacher wants to listen it tomorrow, I think I gonna be death tomorrow...

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Saturday, August 22, 2009

School Holiday

11:39 AM

Staruday, first day of the school holiday. As usual, I'll go out with my parents every Saturday morning. As usual, I'll always sleep in the car beause I'm tired, I'm lack of sleep and also another reason, too boring in the car.

When I'm sleeping, dreaming, suddenly my mom woke me up. I get a shock and jumped up in a sudden. Maybe because of the shock, I feel uneasy, everything become blur, I can't even finish up my breakfast.

H1N1, a disease that spread through of the world, and now Malaysia had been affected too. My lovely friends, please take care of yourself. Although others said that only certain patient that have heart attack, asma and others will be affected easily, but we still need to take care of ourself, as the saying goes, prevention is better than cure...

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Friday, August 21, 2009

My Best Friend

11:47 PM

The end of 2008, there is a trip organized by my form teacher. During the trip, this is the first time I really communicate with Hui Yin. After the trip, we know each other more, know each other better from time to time. After the trip, we became friends, and now, we became best friends.

Hui Yin and I were best friends. The friendship between us were been admired by Hooi Ming and Zakuro. We been through alot together, we cry together, we smile together, we study together, and in the school, we go everywhere together. After we been through these, the friendship between us became stronger.

But sometimes I feel that, there is a gap between us, a tiny little gap. In school, she always looks so happy, relaxing, but I know, she don't really feels that,I can see though her eyes. I just want her to say out her sadness, so that she won't be so suffering. Sometimes, she refuses to do so. Seeing her suffering like that, I feel that I'm useless, I can't even help my best friend. I just want her to be happy, when she's happy, I gonna be happy too.

Hui Yin, take care, look after body properly, don't let yourself suffer from any kind of sickness. Just want you to know, I'm always be your side...

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Exam Over!!!!!

3:59 PM

Yeah!!!! Finally the exam had finished. Although is just three days exam, but still very tired. Begin from Tuesday till Friday, I woke up about 4.45a.m. to 5.00a.m. to study. So tiring...

After the exam, finally I can sleep longer already. No need to wake up so early to study already. But still, although the exam is over, I still have to work hard for the last term exam and next year's SPM.

Today, I'll rest first. Start from tomorrow, I'll complete all my homework as fast as possible. Then have to go to school on Sunday, Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday, Zakuro, Aki and I planned to go Mayuki's house to do another homework. After that, my family and I will go to Singapore to meet my brother and sister on Friday and will be back on Monday. How Exited..

This holiday, really busy holiday. Busy, but I think it will be very interesting. Happy Holiday!!!

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